Archive | July, 2010


24 Jul

my mom and i, along with a friend visited cafe lalo where this infamous scene from one of my favorite movies takes place. heres a clip from when they were in the cafe.

if you remember from the movie tom hanks shakes the railing yelling “SHE HAS TO BE!” so i just had to do a reinactment.


softball and my life-long issue

22 Jul

The Lord was working on my heart last night all while doing a horrible job of covering third base.

I play softball on a team with a bunch of people from various PCA churches in the Atlanta area. It’s really fun and our team is pretty good. I am (in the loosest sense of the phrase) co-captain of the team and last night the other girl who heads up pretty much everything and has for years was out of town so it fell on me to do the organizing. Last night also happened to be the night that the majority of the team decided to be out of town. We were low on people (especially girls) and there are a bunch of rules about how many girls can play per how many guys you have and where they play and automatic outs and… get the drift, it was complicated to say the least and I was confused before the game even started about all the rules.

I had made our line-up and had a nice little spreadsheet drawn up with our batting order, positions etc. – it was a thing of beauty. On the way there i started getting phone-calls that people were dropping out and/or coming late which meant our line-up was looking pretty anemic, we couldn’t even field a full team and we had to take an automatic out every inning because we didn’t have enough girls. So i started scratching off peoples names, re-writing positions and my nice clean spreadsheet quickly became illegible and confusing to even me – and I wrote the darn thing.

So as the game began It became quickly apparent that we were at a huge disadvantage being down so many people and this was not going to pretty. And I was getting more frustrated as the game went along. I didn’t feel like I knew enough to lead the team well. I was confused about the rules and never knew who was supposed to be up at bat. I was also plying third base which I am TERRIBLE at.  It was painful for me. This team that I was supposed to be leading was losing and I didn’t know what to do about it. I could feel my self getting more and more irritated as the game went along and I just wanted it to be over.

In about the 3rd inning I had a sudden epiphany. No one else there cared about this game as much as I did. No one else cared that we were losing by 10 runs. I was getting so worked up over this game because I felt like it reflected poorly on me if we lost or didn’t do well. Everyone else was having fun and I was sitting there stewing and getting more upset by the second.

I wish I could say that right at that moment I did a 180 all of a sudden was loving life and playing softball but alas my attitude was pretty terrible for the rest of the night (you can ask my sister). I’ve always struggled with this. I’m a people pleaser by nature which boils down to I do things to please others so that i may gain their favor.  My attitude should be one of service to others so as to bring glory to God and to love them. I, unfortunately, can’t say that’s true all the time. I don’t think I will ever get there but I pray that the Lord will use things and situations in my life to remind me that sanctification is a process and not a one time event. Even if it’s in the middle of a softball game.


20 Jul

i just finished listening to CS Lewis’ “the Screwtape Letters” on CD and i am just in awe of this piece of literature.

i’ve never been one to really think about spiritual warfare or satan’s desire to draw us away from the Lord but listening to this book really has me thinking about it.  i think i just never wanted to entertain the fact that some other force has influence over me other than the Lord.  it really makes me want to be more vigilant about prayer against the spiritual attack.  i know i have definitely felt attacked spiritually but it’s a scary weird thing to think about.  it is crazy to realize how how vulnerable we are to attack BUT awesome to know how mighty the Lord is that satan cannot win.

if you get a chance to listen to this particular version of the screwtape letters produced by focus on the family’s radio theater team, it is PHENOMENAL! andy serkis (the guy who played gollum in lord of the rings) is the voice of screwtape and is fantastic!

July Update

17 Jul

Hello Friends, Family and Supporters,

If you have ever been on a youth trip I’m sure you know the feeling you have when the time comes to a close. It’s a wonderfully exhausted feeling. You know it was a great trip and you had an awesome time but you are really tired from late nights and long conversations. It’s a great feeling.

For the past week I, along with my boss Eric, have been up at the PCA’s retreat Center in Brevard, North Carolina for Mission to the World’s (MTW) Re-entry Retreat & Summer Conference. These two retreats are times when we can connect with MTW missionaries who are back in the US for their Home Ministry Assignment. We had a great time hanging out with the 10 MK’s that were there with their parents for these retreats. There was hiking, swimming, ping-pong, water-sliding, and even some sleeping under the stars. It was a great time to get to connect with these kids who I have all met before at past area retreats and continue to build relationships with them. Please keep Hannah, Micah, Seth, Johnny, Matthew, Katriena, Amanda, Andrew & Carla in your prayers. Please especially pray for four of these youth who are transitioning to college this fall.

Next on the Calendar is a trip up to New York City to spend some time at MTW’s Cross Cultural Ministry Internship (CCMI). This month-long internship is for newly approved missionaries and their families to receive training and encouragement before they leave for the field. Eric and I will be there the last week of July and spend time with the adults & the youth that are there. I’m really looking forward to meeting these new missionaries and beginning relationships with them that I hope will last a long time. It’s also fun to be up there because my mom and dad have been up in New York serving at CCMI as mentors for the missionaries there. I’m looking forward to seeing them too! Please be praying for our time in New York that we would get some quality time with the missionaries there and that relationships would blossom quickly.

I started full-time in my new role with the Global Youth & Family Ministry on July 6th and have jumped in with both feet. It’s been so fun thus far and I am really enjoying it. Please continue to pray for me as i adjust to this new role and continue to raise support. I’m so thankful for each and every one of you. Please let me know how y’all are doing and how I can be praying for you!

In Him, Ruthanne (new work email)